7:25pm. I’m out of coffee, and I have been sitting at my computer all day.
It’s a new year, and I decided to quit the whole new year, new me thing. Truth is… It doesn’t work for me. Ever. Instead, I decided to just make moves. Because… Why not?
New Year Goals
This year’s goals include:
promoting my photography business that has been open since 2014.
get back into blogging on a regular basis.
keep my grades up, and keep myself motivated about school.
take a vacation.
adopt a healthier lifestyle.
It’s mid-January, and I’ve already started working towards half of my goals. I’ve been working out and eating better. I’ve been completing all of my homework assignments on time. I booked a five-day cruise to the Bahamas for my family. I had my first successful photography session of the year. And, I’ve launched my first photography promotion.
I also had time to put together websites for J’s business and my own. Terin Selena Photography finally has a fully functional website and shop. My Facebook and Instagram pages are active, and I am so relieved!
I’m excited about 2017. I finally realized that no one can make my dreams come true, except me. I have to live for myself, first. Only thing that I’m mad about, is how long it took me to figure this out.
It was a really sudden decision. I was setting up my Inkwell Press planner for the new year, and decided to use my Heidi Swapp goodbye/hello stamps. I decided that I want to say goodbye to this very unhealthy lifestyle that I have created over the past year.
Why The 21 Day Fix?
I haven’t worked out consistently in a very long time. I tried a few others, but couldn’t commit to the workouts. I chose the 21 Day Fix because it seems like the perfect way to get back into my groove. It’s a great mix of cardio and weight training. I’m proud to say that I’m on Day 6, and I’m still motivated to continue!
Along with working out, I’m also focusing on better other aspects of my health. That includes drinking more water1 and scheduling the necessary appointments for my acne, vision, and overall health.
I’m so serious about focusing on myself this year. I need this for me, and I have realized that no one else can make these changes for me.
At the beginning of September, I saw a post on Instagram about Target’s Beauty Box. It was on sale for $5! I used my redCard and ended up getting an additional 5% off and free shipping!
What’s In The Beauty Box?
❣ Jane Carter Revitalizing Leave-In Conditioner
❣ Curls Créme Brule Whipped Curl Creme
❣ Dove Quench Absolute Crème Serum
❣ SheaMoisture Jamaican Black Castor Oil
❣ Aquaphor Healing Ointment
❣ Colgate Optic White Platinum Express White Toothpaste
Unboxing The Beauty Box
I got this Beauty Box in hopes of finding some new products to use on my natural hair. It’s been at a stand still for me. I find myself not wanting to do anything with it these days. It takes too long to dry… Too long to twist… LOL! I’m rambling.
Anyway, the Beauty Box is sold out, now. I’m excited to start using some of these products!
“…I shouldn’t have left you… Without a dope beat to step to.”
Anyone who really knows me, knows that I stanned hard for Aaliyah back in the day! But…. This isn’t about that. I’ve been gone a long time. I’m not really sorry. And yeah…
So here we are! Here. I. Am. And so much as changed since the last time I wrote here. JJ started Kindergarten. Ivy is in a Pre-K3 program. I got a tattoo… I turned 30. I’m still married… Depressed, sometimes, but mostly happy. But, I can say that I’m getting a little better at expressing my feelings.
Okay, that was a lie. Truth is… I’m still struggling with the truth. The parts of my life that have to remain unspoken. I’m dying on the inside, feeling like there isn’t anyone who understands my situation.
As much as I need to release this negative energy, I keep feeling like it’s never the right time. I can’t remember a time in my life where I was this confused and out of my mind. I’m hoping that this is like… a mini mid-life crisis, because I don’t want this to be life. This CAN’T be life.
Compliment yourself on your least favorite physical feature. Find the beauty in it and describe it.
I would like to compliment myself on my body. I don’t care for my body because of the problems I have with acne and this “baby fat”. I know it’s not that bad; but when I look in the mirror, it’s all I see.
Truth is, there’s an understated beauty here. I love my eyes. I think they are the windows to my soul, and they say a lot about my true character. They are always bright and filled with joy and love. I definitely smile with my eyes.
I also love my smile. This smile has brightened many days for friends and strangers. It’s what makes me approachable. I have the illusion of always being happy. …And my teeth are pretty1!
I love like my weight. I struggled with gaining weight for the majority of my life. I’m content at 130 pounds. And it’s lovable weight gain, too2! It’s mostly in my midsection, but I have a lil’ booty going on…and HIPS!! After I hit up those ab workouts3, I feel like I’ll love my body even more.
What I’m realizing about these things is that they are petty. They can all be changed, but I have to be willing to put in the effort to change them.