It’s Been A Long Time…

“…I shouldn’t have left you… Without a dope beat to step to.”

Anyone who really knows me, knows that I stanned hard for Aaliyah back in the day! But…. This isn’t about that. I’ve been gone a long time. I’m not really sorry. And yeah…

So here we are! Here. I. Am. And so much as changed since the last time I wrote here. JJ started Kindergarten. Ivy is in a Pre-K3 program. I got a tattoo… I turned 30. I’m still married… Depressed, sometimes, but mostly happy. But, I can say that I’m getting a little better at expressing my feelings.

Okay, that was a lie. Truth is… I’m still struggling with the truth. The parts of my life that have to remain unspoken. I’m dying on the inside, feeling like there isn’t anyone who understands my situation.

As much as I need to release this negative energy, I keep feeling like it’s never the right time. I can’t remember a time in my life where I was this confused and out of my mind. I’m hoping that this is like… a mini mid-life crisis, because I don’t want this to be life. This CAN’T be life.

DIY Duck Tape Table

Duck Tape Table Close Up

A couple of weeks ago, I was browsing Instagram and saw a link to Sophistishe’s Duck Tape Table tutorial. I knew then that I had to try it. I purchased the tape at Dollar General and got to work. I must admit that this was a quick and easy task!! It took about 30 minutes (maybe less) and I wanted to duck tape everything when I was done.
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I also ended up rearranging the furniture in our living room. Ivy started walking a little over a week ago and the set up that I had was not enough space for her to room. She was bumping her head on the coffee table, banging on the sliding door, and pulling cords.
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Having the furniture this way is a lot more secure. All of the plugs and surge protectors are hidden now. The kids also have a lot more room to play on the floor. The design before had the loveseat on the opposite side of the sofa..acting more as a divider. This is the third time that I’ve rearranged furniture this month and I think it’s a winner.

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Birthday via Instagram
2:05pm. It’s Hump Day, which also happens to be the midpoint of my vacation. I took the week off of work for my birthday.

Nothing new has been happening in the world… Well, that’s a lie, lol! A lot has been happening. I can’t remember the last time I actually posted on any of my sites. I’m slowing drifting away from the web. I’m slowing drifting away from life. So let me recap. Read more

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4.28.13 I stayed at home with the babies today because they weren’t feeling well. Their first week at daycare ended with both of them catching colds. My poor Ivy has it the worst, though. I wish there were something that I could do to help her feel better… (other than lots of hugs and kisses!)