It was a really sudden decision. I was setting up my Inkwell Press planner for the new year, and decided to use my Heidi Swapp goodbye/hello stamps. I decided that I want to say goodbye to this very unhealthy lifestyle that I have created over the past year.
Why The 21 Day Fix?
I haven’t worked out consistently in a very long time. I tried a few others, but couldn’t commit to the workouts. I chose the 21 Day Fix because it seems like the perfect way to get back into my groove. It’s a great mix of cardio and weight training. I’m proud to say that I’m on Day 6, and I’m still motivated to continue!
Along with working out, I’m also focusing on better other aspects of my health. That includes drinking more water1 and scheduling the necessary appointments for my acne, vision, and overall health.
I’m so serious about focusing on myself this year. I need this for me, and I have realized that no one else can make these changes for me.
“…I shouldn’t have left you… Without a dope beat to step to.”
Anyone who really knows me, knows that I stanned hard for Aaliyah back in the day! But…. This isn’t about that. I’ve been gone a long time. I’m not really sorry. And yeah…
So here we are! Here. I. Am. And so much as changed since the last time I wrote here. JJ started Kindergarten. Ivy is in a Pre-K3 program. I got a tattoo… I turned 30. I’m still married… Depressed, sometimes, but mostly happy. But, I can say that I’m getting a little better at expressing my feelings.
Okay, that was a lie. Truth is… I’m still struggling with the truth. The parts of my life that have to remain unspoken. I’m dying on the inside, feeling like there isn’t anyone who understands my situation.
As much as I need to release this negative energy, I keep feeling like it’s never the right time. I can’t remember a time in my life where I was this confused and out of my mind. I’m hoping that this is like… a mini mid-life crisis, because I don’t want this to be life. This CAN’T be life.
The last #30Layers30Days prompt is Start. Stop. Continue.
Have your answers changed since the beginning of the challenge?
START:What do you want to start doing? What do you want more of in your life? What feelings, what activities, what energy? What baby step can you take today?
∙ I want to start living life more. I want to start accepting the fact that I need change. I want my life to be functional and real. I want to be happy. I will start by being myself.
STOP:What have you had enough of? What are you tolerating or feeding into that is not adding value to your life? What area of your life is begging for more boundaries?
∙ I want to stop putting myself down. I want to stop accepting life for what it is right now. I’m too comfortable with living my life based on other people’s opinion. I need to set standards for myself, and not be bound by my fears.
CONTINUE:What habits or trends do you want to continue? What’s been working for you? What can you do to ensure you keep it going?
∙ I want to continue being a good parent. I want to continue being a hard worker to help my husband provide for this family. I can keep going. I can keep having faith in God, my husband, and myself.
Today’s #30Layers30Days prompt is Hi, My Name Is. “I’ve always led introductions with my status as a student or employee or my role in my family. There’s nothing wrong with those things as long as you are leading with what you want to attract. Opportunities and miracles are everywhere hiding in plain sight, and one way to show that we are open to receiving them is to allow ourselves to be seen.”1
How do you introduce yourself to people? Do you lead with what matters most to you?
Introduce yourself leading with what you want to attract. By doing so, you are telling the universe that you are ready to receive the blessings that will take you to your next level.
Hi, my name is Terin. I’m married, and I have two children. I’m a Christian. I work for TD Bank.
In my free time, I like to design and host websites, and shoot photography.
I think that I do a pretty good job of introducing myself with what I want to attract. My introduction starts with the things that are most important to me: family and my beliefs. I also include what I do currently as well as hobbies. Both are usually great conversation starters.
Think about the goals you are working toward right now and why you want to accomplish those things. Think about the WHY behind your goals. You can use the two columns method for this or flush it out in your own way.
∙Go back to school
∙Fix my marriage
∙Be a great mother
∙Start my own business
∙I want to get a degree, not only because everyone thinks I should, but because I need it to move to another level in life.
∙I want to fix my marriage because I’m from a family that doesn’t really believe in divorce. So that my children can enjoy growing up in a two parent home.
∙I want to be a great mother because every child deserves to have an awesome parent who loves and cares about them unconditionally.
∙I want to start my own business because people think I’ll be great at it.